When Will My Time Come

“my twat is on lock down and there’s a 7 letter combo to unlock it and that’s respect”

I think that once in a while its nice for you all the see what REALLY goes on in my head and for you all to know why i dont blog sometimes for long periods of time. Anywhos this is a entery from my personal online PUBLIC diary i say this all the time i have NOTHING to hide and this proves it.. Anywho’s some people are going to say whats the point of posting this on a gossip site, well the point is that this is still MY site therefore i will post whateva i want. Anywhos i wrote this last night and you never know ladies you might have some advice for me and men you might learn some do’s and donts of dating……..

I truly want to know when it will be my turn to find someone that doesn’t want to rush into a relationship and doesn’t want to rush into sex. Its like now a days if a gurl done give it up right away a guy is turned off and don’t want ish to do with her. But when she gives it up they still don’t talk her. In other works its clearly at a point where guys only want sex and good head. The sad thing is that now a days the ones u THINK will be different are the worst ones and the main ones that won’t pic up the phone when u call but got the nerve to be introducing u as wifey and “girlfriend”. What a waste of a damn title. I feel like this… Don’t give me a title show me my title. Don’t tell me I’m ur wify show me I’m ur wify. Like I don’t even want to hear u call me wify until u prove it with ur actions. Wat for??? All its doing is getting my hopes up which is probably the whole point in the first damn place.

I love when I tell guys I’m “celibate” and their like “why??” Or “girl plz” and then they be trying to ask u to stop within the next few days…. *raises hand* why the bunk am I going to stop keeping myself clean just cause UR horny. I may not want to not have sex cause I have needs just like EVERYONE else however I can wait. I won’t have sex with another guy that’s not worthy. I’m sorry but my ish is good and I know its good and from what I hear it taste good too so why would I just give it to any mofo. I’m sorry but I can’t and I won’t. How dare u tell me that if I would have come to ur house today we would have had sex. Ni**a have u lost ur damn mind?? The only ones having sex would have been u ur hand and the lotion u keep n ur damn bathroom. There’s a reason I don’t want guys at my house and I don’t want to be at theirs cause unlike me they can’t control their sexual urges which is a damn shame. Ur 20 and up but yet u can’t control ur own damn dick smh #fail + #immature moment for u. Get it together before u invite me to ur house. I’m just sick of it. What happened to the days when a girl would go kick it with a guy that she likes and even if she’s drunk and throwing herself at him he was able to control his feelings. I just don’t get it like why have guys just gotten more and more horny over the years. What do I have to do lose my ass and tittes to get a guy to just chill with me now a days??? I just don’t get it.

Never the less I’m happy that my twat is on lock down and there’s a 7 letter combo to unlock it and that’s respect. Don’t u disrespect me by telling me that I should stop being celibate next week just so UR needs can be fulfilled…. Uummm helllooo what about NayBesa’s needs????? Hhhmmmm what ever happened to the importance of making sure I’m happy. I KNOW that the tables didn’t flip that damn much just cause its 2010. I know I said it before but its beginning to seem more and more true that I’m going to have to move out of state to find my boo cause he doesn’t seem to be here in seattle. Uuhhkkk I’m just sick of the same old cycle I’m not going to say that guys change after they get what they want but they sure as hell show their true colors and I don’t have time for that. I just want someone that loves me for me. I feel like its impossible to find that but it can’t be because I know so many people that have. They say just be patient, but I have been for the last YEAR. They say don’t look, but after a year how can u not start to look. Sooner or later u are going to start to miss being held at night and having someone u can kick it with that loves u for more then what’s below the belt. Someone that took the time to get to know u n and out BEFORE having sex with u. I feel like its never going to happen for me but I guess I just need to stop trippin. Stop talking to these guys with no sense or self control and just wait… My hand hurts since I’m writing this on my BB [blackberry] I can’t write for as long. I have more to say but I can’t keep holding my phone the way I am. I will write more later…
*BESAS* ♡ ♍ ♡